For the Snape fans: (A oneshot ficlet)
As I sat in the chair as he worked busily in front of me I noticed that without the baggy schoolmasters cloak that he usually wore, his back was oddly defined in the tight black jacket.
His back was smooth and had a curve to it just above where his rear would be and it stirred something animalistic inside me. I imagined it minus the jacket, minus the waistcoat beneath that, the crisp white shirt beneath that and imagined if the skin of his back was as sun-deprived as the pale skin on his hands that worked so enthusiastically now, brewing me the potion I had asked.
Getting up behind him as quietly as I could, I deserted the faded green leather chair and walked silently behind him, hoping he would not sense my presence and grow impatient with my efforts.
I looked over his shoulder and watched him work.
His hands were amazing.
I doubt he would see them that way, they were simply tools to him, but their softness, their exquisite delicacy were things of great beauty to me.
“…Severus.” I began in what I hope would be a pleasing tone.
He grunted to indicate that he had heard me but did not pause.
“…Severus, please.” I continued and put my hand on his.
He paused and looked at my hand as if I had scolded him before looking me in the eye with his usual steely gaze.
“I…”
My nerves failed me, and I closed my mouth again, looking down.
“If you want me to continue making this for you, It would behove you to sit down and be quiet.” he murmured quietly before looking away.
I stepped back automatically and sat back in the chair.
Severus Snape was an enigma. And a difficult one to crack at that.
He relished his own company, rarely ventured out of the grounds and loathed mixing with the other staff and passively hostile to anyone who he did not deem it necessary to speak to.
So why did I desire to put myself in the firing line and press on him to talk to me at every opportunity? Why did his anti-social attitude make me so attracted to him.
With a smooth turn, he presented me with a stoppered flask of what I had asked of him.
“Drink it directly and the problem should soon disappear. If you have any other problems…” he began pausing precisely “I would go to St. Mungo’s as there is very little more that I, or anybody else here at Hogwarts may do for you.”
He then stared at me as if to question why I was still stood in his study.
“Thank you. Thanks…”
I got up and walked to the door, feeling his eyes boring into my back as I walked, yet I found the courage to turn around.
“…Will you be joining us for dinner, Severus?”
Snape tapped the desk he had been working on once with his wand and avoided my gaze altogether.
“I do not see why I should change my usual routine.”
I nodded and left.
All the way back to my chambers, I wondered what had become of the boy I knew so well in my youth and why he had become so hopelessly closed to the world.
How he had allowed his heart to grow cold and his soul to become stone.
Why did I have these feelings for him now, and not then?
